I had a fling with a boy last summer and still have feelings for him. How do I forget him?

Some background first- this happend last summer. I have two older siblings. I am a girl. Every summer my family goes to Chicago for 3 weeks. I am a very athletic person.



Chicago is my home away from hom (Buffalo New York) in the summer. I love it there and know all

the streets and places. I always get up early to go running, because my parents dont care what we do, they give us 20$ and tell us to be back at the condo we have by --.My third day there, a boy who looked about my age was running behind me on my route. At first I thought he was stalking me, but when I turned a corner I snuck a glance and noticed he was HOT. SEXY. he wasnt wearing a shirt and had an amazing set of abs. I couldnt help myself but to slow down so he could catch up with me. I noticed he was looking at me alot and he had a naughty grin on his face. He said his name was Josh, and i told him my name. He said he had been watching me run and asked if i lived here. I told him we come to chicago every summer and he said he was from Toronto. We talked alot and found we had a ton in common- we both played hockey and baseball, were huge sports fans, listened to the same types of music, etc. I finally said i had to go back to our condo, and he said wait- meet me at this cafe at 11. We did this every day and i fell for him. I crushed hard. But if i told my mom she would flip. If i told my siblings theyd tell my mom, and my dad would find him and beat him up. I did my best to hold in that special feeling. We went out to restaurants, played hockey at a local rink, and walked around alot. When i had 3 days left in Chicago, we were at the rink playing hockey. He skated over to me and pulled me into the penalty box. He sat me down and told me, "I love you- alot." and i told him i loved him too. We kissed and made out on the penalty box. Then we went to a hotel, and people watched in the lobby. We went out to dinner and he payed for it. Then the mext day came. Two days left. We walked along the Chicago river, his arm around my waist. I told him i would miss him alot, that i loved him, and it was great while it lasted. And that i would always have a spot for him. We kissed. That was the last time i ever saw him.









Now, m at the age where at school its all "Who likes who" and to be honest, i dont like anyone at my school because i still am in love with Josh. My friends say, "Come on, there has to be somebody!" and i want to say, "There is someone. He just doesnt go here." i really miss him and sometimes i think about him. Ive only told one of my friends and she wont tell a soul. I feel like i'm waiting up, but i know and he knew perfectly well that it would end. I didnt want it to end and neither did he. I want to move on and find someone since i love boys and boys tend to like me alot, but i feel like there is a voice in my head saying there is someone out there for you and that someone is Josh. Im going back to Chicago this summer and i'm kinda nervous. I dont want the memory of him to ruin the trip. I know that i'll probably never see him again. I usually tell my friends im in love with hockey players or other sports players or actors because i find them attractive. They say, come on, why dont you find a real man! And i soo badly want to say I have. I want to move on knowing that my time with Josh is over, but the memory of him is an obstacle in the way. How can i forget him and move on?I had a fling with a boy last summer and still have feelings for him. How do I forget him?
First off, don't listen to what you're friends say. If they don't like jocks, they don't like jocks. Don't let them live your life.

Second, if you want to forget about him, just live your life- join a club or sport, find a hobby, exercise, call family from far away, write in a journal, be religious- it's easy. Don't worry about the past or future. Worry about what you could do today. Focus yourself. You might find even a new guy who also has the same interests.

When you go back to Chicago, don't go looking for Josh- just have fun in Chicago!!! I hope this helps and that you have a great summer. =)